my sweet girl

life is definitely different. as i stumble through this complete life shift due to a lack of sleep, i still look at this little girl with a sense of wonder, awe and pure love. this is the love that god loves us with. this little girl can't even hold her own head up, she can't speak, can't tell me what she wants and she definitely can't do anything for me, yet my love for her is so full. she keeps me up in the middle of the night, she cries as i am trying to comfort her, and she is so needy. but it doesn't matter. none of those things matter. my love for her grows all the same. this is the picture of jesus' love. in the things we cry through, struggle through and are so needy through, jesus loves us all the same. the same sense of wonder, awe and pure love. the giver of love.

sweet girl





after a tearful bath!





in her recliner...





with her mimi

harper grace ott!

harper is here!!!!

harper grace ott
7lbs 9oz
19 inches

she is simply amazing.

my cup of blessing

'you are my cup of blessing.' i love that from psalm 16. it also says that you alone are my inheritance. i will inherit holiness. righteousness. joy. peace. love. goodness. because of the cross, i do not reap what i sow. in 1 peter 2 it says 'by his wounds, you have been healed.' because of your wounds, i inherit holiness. i am humbled by the whole picture in 1 peter 2. that you were insulted and you suffered. but you didn't retaliate. you didn't even try to prove who you really are. it says 'instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.' it was as simple as that. you did what i am called to do, but struggle messily to fulfill. to live for something bigger than this world. to entrust in god. instead of proving how worthy i am...to just entrust in god. to just receive my cup of blessing. and the reward is extravagant. my inheritance is you. there aren't many things in this life that are truly extravagant. this worldly life does get turned into proving yourself. to retaliation. but really there IS extravagance. there is holy. peace. love. you are the cup of blessing. that is the extravagance that i want to live for. lord, you are my inheritance. let that alone be enough for me.